Life Talk 12

As'salam.

If it were a few hours ago, I wouldn't have started this post with "As'salam" but with something else instead...

Something like this...

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You know how there's one things that people always feared that would happened to them? Fears that would later lead to 'issues'? Well, one of my biggest fears happened less than 12 hours ago...

I was left behind.

No, not by my family but by the group of girls that are my classmates in UIA. Well, long story short, we were supposed to go visit our Physics lecturer today around before Asr prayers. Since I don't really have any close friends there or keep close contact with them, I messaged a few of them to remind me when they were going.

Pa-ta-pa-ta

The Asr prayer time was already in and I heard no news from them. So when I messaged one of them, another one of my closer-but-no-so-really friend called me and said the group from my dorm had already left earlier and the group from the other girls dorm were still at Midvalley. They said they'd wait for me to ride the bus and meet them there but here's the other news- I don't know how to ride a bus. I keep asking people to teach me but they said that since I was going in a group, there wouldn't be much problem. Big surprise huh?

So what happened afters? They went off without me and I bawled in my room. Alone. Loud.

Needless to say, I called my mom, cried to her and despite the fact that I didn't want to go back home this week, I did.

I'm not mad. Really, I'm not since it's as much as my fault as it is theirs but I'm just really, really sad. Since that happened, I kept thinking,

'Ohana means family. Family means that no one gets left behind...or forgotten...'

So much for the name G41 Family.

Again, I'm not mad. Things happen out of our plans as everything is in the hands of Allah SWT but I'm still sad.

So now you know... I have abandonment issue.

Wa'salam and good night. ^^