Life Talk 12

As'salam.

If it were a few hours ago, I wouldn't have started this post with "As'salam" but with something else instead...

Something like this...

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You know how there's one things that people always feared that would happened to them? Fears that would later lead to 'issues'? Well, one of my biggest fears happened less than 12 hours ago...

I was left behind.

No, not by my family but by the group of girls that are my classmates in UIA. Well, long story short, we were supposed to go visit our Physics lecturer today around before Asr prayers. Since I don't really have any close friends there or keep close contact with them, I messaged a few of them to remind me when they were going.

Pa-ta-pa-ta

The Asr prayer time was already in and I heard no news from them. So when I messaged one of them, another one of my closer-but-no-so-really friend called me and said the group from my dorm had already left earlier and the group from the other girls dorm were still at Midvalley. They said they'd wait for me to ride the bus and meet them there but here's the other news- I don't know how to ride a bus. I keep asking people to teach me but they said that since I was going in a group, there wouldn't be much problem. Big surprise huh?

So what happened afters? They went off without me and I bawled in my room. Alone. Loud.

Needless to say, I called my mom, cried to her and despite the fact that I didn't want to go back home this week, I did.

I'm not mad. Really, I'm not since it's as much as my fault as it is theirs but I'm just really, really sad. Since that happened, I kept thinking,

'Ohana means family. Family means that no one gets left behind...or forgotten...'

So much for the name G41 Family.

Again, I'm not mad. Things happen out of our plans as everything is in the hands of Allah SWT but I'm still sad.

So now you know... I have abandonment issue.

Wa'salam and good night. ^^

Life Talk 11

As-salam.

It's been a while since I posted here. Almost a whole month. Am gonna keep this brief. I'm at my friend's room and they don't know that I have a blog. XP

Anyway, so many things have happened and will about to. First things first, Ramadhan has passed (TT^TT) and Syawal has entered. Well...it's almost to the end of Syawal already. I'm in the process of finishing my puasa enam so wish me luck that I would be able to finish it before the end of Syawal. ^^

Another thing, finals are next week. O-O
And despite the fact that my Physics book is (kinda) open, here I am writing this. I should start becoming serious in my studies. ><

Next... I found some disturbing news about VERSAILLES. Seriously, it was so disturbing that I deleted all of their songs from my MP4 and replaced them with DaizyStripper's songs, which now is my current favourite new band... I won't confirm my suspicions here yet since Jellyfish and I promised to look into it after our exams but I can tell it won't be pretty. It might be bad news now but who knows, maybe it'll be good news for my afterlife. For now, only Allah SWT knows...

I saw bJd today, for the first time in a couple of weeks. I guess there was a reason why I haven't been to the Pasar Malam these few weeks since that is the place in which I will absolutely, for sure! see him. And since I did, I'm not sure whether I should be happy or not that I looked away. And I might be denying myself when I say I no longer like him because for a while then, my heart skipped a beat. It wasn't as bad as before, but it was there. For now, all I can pray for to you, Allah SWT, is the strength for me to diminish my feelings for him and strengthen my love for you, Insya-Allah...

One other thing...I've started taking part in my class's activities for now. Okay, mainly is because I wanna have a decent anime conversation with the guys. I'm kinda frustrated because it's been a while since I talked anime or J-rock for that matter with anyone. Well, minus Pink-holic yesterday. We had a short talk about animes but since I'm a yaoi/shounen type of person...our conversation is short lived.

Anyway, I WANNA TALK ANIME WITH SOMEONE!

THERE!

Well, good night for now. I'm gonna drown myself in DaizyStripper songs as well as Hitotsu Dake.

Ja ne~

Wa'alaikum salam. ^^