Life Talk 9

Assalam'alaikum~

It's 2 am here and I'm not asleep yet. XP

In 3 hours, more or less, I'm going to wake up for sahur and stay up after subuh prayers because~ guess where I'm going afters?

It'll only be my second time going there but I can't wait to see the animals~ Yup, you guessed right, I'm going to the National Zoo~!!!! Along with the rest of Environmental and Nature Club (ENC) members and board of committees~

Gosh, I can't wait! Insya-Allah we'll reach there safely and no, just in case if you're wondering, I'm not going there for fun~ Well...kinda, XP but we're mostly going there for charity~ ENC's collaborating with ARC, PJ and ARC, Nilai with this so it's gonna be one big charity event from us to the kawaiii~~~ animals in the Zoo~!

Ahhh~~~ Remembering them, I really can't wait to go now~ X3

Oh, another big news~ I'm not going back home this weekend! Shocker right!? When I told this to my friend, they made the 'O.O' face and said,

"_____(insert my name)_____, is not going back? That's huge news!"

Kinda, since this is my first time staying the weekend here in UIA. So far so good since I went back on Saturday last weekend so it didn't really feel like there's much difference. Insya-Allah I'll get by this weekend safely fulling my deeds to Allah SWT.

So, what happened this week? Oh yeah, I felt lonely. XP

I mean, what a feeling to have in this Holy month, when you're supposed to feel closer to Allah SWT and yet I'm feeling lonely. Well, it's just that, every time I go to and from class, I'm walking alone. I buy my food for break fast alone, I go to the kiosk and the k-shop alone so basically, I get jealous when I see people walking in pairs or in groups.

Don't get me wrong, it's not like I'm so obnoxious that I don't have any friends, I do! It's just that, when I see them together...I just don't feel like cutting in with them. I'll feel really out of place and with that, I spend my days doing things alone...not that it's that bad.

Well, the day in which I felt my loneliness was at the max, I went to my friend's room and there, I read a synopsis of the book she's reading. At the end of the synopsis, there was a sentence that wrote;

"And may you find happiness even when you're alone..."

Or something along those lines. It was Wednesday then. Don't really remember that much now. XP

Anyway, the book got me thinking...(it was an Islamic travel log, just in case if you wanted to know, ;D ) and at the end of it, I felt grateful that I was blessed with such close friends, even if they are far from me.

Yes, both Saki and Jellyfish. Even though I can only see them once in a few months, that doesn't change the fact that we're best friends and they're the ones that know me for only me and everything about me.

So, Alhamdulillah because I've been given such friends that stay near in my heart, even if our physiques are far apart. XD XD

What else.... Well, I think I'm going to start doing weekly updates, but then again, so many things happened this week and yet I've only told you so little about it. Maybe I'll write it some other day and maybe it will never be written here at all, but one things for sure, the memories will stay with me, Insya-Allah.

Oh yeah, remember last time when I said I had a crush on a guy on campus, nicknamed bJd? Well, despite that it's only been...12 days, my feelings for him has been buried. Maybe it was just self-denial at first, and maybe it still is...but one things for sure, Alhamdulillah, my heart didn't jump or beat like it did when I saw him on Thursday, after my Tilawah class despite the fact that I haven't had as much as a glance of him during these 3 weeks.

Writing about this, my heart feels heavy now but I'm not sure whether it's heavy for him or is it heavy for the one I should love the most in the whole wide world, Allah SWT.

For that, only He knows...Subhanallah.

Hmm...I guess that's all for tonight. It's gonna be 3 am soon and as such, I'm still not asleep! I'll probably catch some nap-eye in the bus on the way to the Zoo... XP

Mata ato de!