Continuation~

Okay, here's a continuation of yesterday's post~
Sorry, wanted to post it yesterday night but something came up so didn't managed to...
Anyway, here's what happened from Monday (14/06/2010) till Wednesday(16/06/2010)

Monday (14/06/2010)
We set off for Port Dickson~ which was so lame because we wanted to go to Melaka but my dad...haiz... Anyway, a veerrrry distant relative of mine passed away the night before so we went to his house to pay his family our condolence to the family...
After that, we went to the WORST APARTMENT EVER (thanks to my dad who is a TOTAL cheapskate for our family) And the day ended with us eating at the a very expensive but not really nice place.... Yeah, bad day... =w=''
Luckily my Gakuen Heaven manga reached me before we went off. XD XD

Tuesday (15/06/2010)
Ate breakfast at the hotel...wasn't that nice (what do you expect from an apartment that doesn't even have forks or spoons for us!) And after that, that afternoon, everyone slept...except me and my forth sister, of course! Managed to finish Vampire Transgression....it's disturbing... and then watched my sister play games~ (probably one of my best hobbies ever~) And...and...I have no idea was else to write...I was a boring day like any other else...

Wednesday (16/06/2010)
Pack up to leave~ (my youngest sister woke up late...again!) And the journey back was more faster than when we were going...but...after I got back home...I started to feel dizzy...really as in I wasn't moving and yet if feels like my mind is...confusing, well, I'll tell you what it is...

DA! DUN!
Woke up this morning with...FEVER! (s0 out of season)
And it isn't even EXAMS! ARGH!!!!!

Plenty...

Yeah, I know... I haven't updated this in a while...told you I can last at a site about a week only... =w=

Anyway, since I didn't update anything in about a week, I'll just briefly say what's currently happening in my life.

Last Thursday (10/6/2010)
I was crazy about Yun Kouga and Earthian...
Earthian is a very sweet and touching manga~ It's absolutely adorable, especially in terms of the relationship between Chihaya and Kagetsuya~ I nearly cried during the trial TT^TT Anyway~
I want to be Chihaya! Anyone want to be my Kagetsuya~ =3

Last Friday (11/6/2010)
I was crazy about Kisaragi Hirotaka and Brother X Brother...
Lam-di-dum-di-dum~
No, it's not incest if that's what's going on in your freaking minds!

Last Saturday (12/6/2010)
I was crazy about Yoshinaga Fumi and her whole loot of manga! The only ones that I have, lolz
Earlier that morning, I read Antique Bakery (couldn't finish all four volumes because it was too long =w= ) By noon I was already reading Ai towa Yoru ni Kizoku Mono (find the English name yourself, I like the Japanese name better) And that night, desperately trying to stay awake, I read Ichigenme wa Yaruki no Minpou~

Last Sunday (13/6/2010)
I was again crazy about Versailles (face it, this craze will never stop >w< ) and Matenrou Opera (neither will this craze =3 ) again. Kamijo's and Sono's voices really captured me again~ And so is Hizaki's awesome-ness guitar playing! XD XD
Well, at least I have something crazy to do despite being stuck in a meeting that me and my youngest sister had to got just because my dad held the Chair position and my mom and other sisters are also members...
(WTF am I talking about...)

This is all for now, I think. Continuation of the events of this week will be told in another post!

-Did I mention that my mood is crappy right now? It is... =w= -

So...saa ne...

Well, this is rather odd... I'm writing here and so far my mood isn't really all that crappy. Heck, it was like yesterday, except that I'm not feeling that bad now...

I think it's great. It means that I can do more things now rather than just sit moping around or crying for no reason. I mean...it was depressing these few days...but now I'm glad that I'm feeling better, even if it is by a tad.

Anyway, Chemistry must have somehow gotten it's way into my sleep because this morning, my sister said that I was actually sleep-talking CHEMISTRY! Of all the 9 subjects that I'm taking for SPM, it HAD to be CHEMISTRY! Well, I think I have the awesome Chem teacher yesterday to thank about that...though I have no idea what I talked about. I think it was about the calculations because my mom said that I've been saying a lot of number...

Maybe it was Add Maths instead...Oh well~
>w<

Hmm...what else to write about...

Oh yeah...I'm in serious desperate shyte of needing money...me and my goddamn characters to cosplay...shouldn't have been to excited about it... >.<

And thus, I have made a decision! To cope with my dying need to cosplay and collecting yaoi related things, I have decided, after next year's cosplay plan ( which I have about 4 now >.<'' ) I will only do Versailles related cosplay, either HIZAKI or TERU, and only ONE anime/manga character which I really wish to do.

THERE!

Now I just hope that my will is strong enough to stick through my decision...

Complicated-ness....

Honestly, the thought of updating this today never really crossed my mind. I can never stay on one thing in the net. Most of my blogs usually get used for about a week an then the very existence of it would have left my absent mind...

I was planning to use this blog as a way to express myself when I'm down in the dumps or just feeling gloomy or stressed out. That's the main reason why I didn't bother to update this site earlier. I wasn't feeling anything like what I described earlier. I felt crazy. Happy even. And the burden on my shoulder felt like it was lifted the moment I went to my seminar.

I should probably thank the seminar's Chemistry teacher for making me feel this way. She's so nice and generous! And probably the coolest Chemistry teacher one could ever know. Sure, we didn't manage to finish what she had already planned for us on that day, but she was really clear about what she was teaching us. And she's really good at giving motivational advices. I mean, at the end of the day, I wasn't stressed at all! It felt good~ Finally after almost a week...

And yet here I am...writing in my blog...while listening and singing my lungs out to Anomie. Actually, even I'm wondering why I'm doing this... I really have no reason to post out my feelings to an open internet space. I could have just wrote all of this in a diary and kept it amongst my yaoi things... and yet... I didn't...

Crap...my chest hurts...

.....

Oh yeah, the reason I'm writing here tonight... despite my hard attempt to keep myself from being stressed and finally having a happy and relaxed day.
Well... most of the feelings that I'm having now comes from me, and even though the way I'm saying it might sound as if the people that I'm talking about are at fault, it's all just mine. So if you by any chance know who that I'm about to mention, please, just remember that it's my fault for feeling like this towards them, because, like all of you that are reading this post, I am but just a human...

I'm just stressed that I feel so jealous of what my friends have... A nice collection of items, a thing that I've wished for since I started drawing, and finally, the ability to be able to look forward without being stuck in the past... something that I haven't been able to do since these regretful feelings stirred inside of me...

It's sad... and depressing...

Introduction....!?

Well...since this is the first post...I guess introductions are in order...

I don't really like to reveal too much of myself, especially online, so what I'm posting here would be the most that you would know about me... >.<

Name : Itsura Yarvessa (yes, it's a fake name~ )
Age : 16 going onto 17
Place of Birth and Residence - Malaysia~
Date of Birth - December 1993

Currently I'm in high school, and getting ready to face one of the biggest examinations of my life! and yet here I am spending my time on the net, lolz.

My dream : I have no idea...maybe having Malaysians accept Visual-Kei and Lolita without saying them weirdos every time they see people wearing cutsews, puffy pannier skirts and long Gothic shirts...well that's considered more of a wish...I guess...

BACK TO TOPIC! I'm really running away from the intro here... =.=''

Interest : Anime, Manga, Yaoi, J-rock ( Versailles, Plastic Tree, Matenrou Opera, SID, D, Vidoll... and more, lolz ), Oshare-kei (Aicle) , Drawing, Animation...Reading....Am going to stop now...it's getting too long...

Occupation : Full time student!
Wishes that are about to be fulfilled : Am going to cosplay! Finally!!!!!!!Now just need to wait till I have enough money for a BJD...

I guess that's all for now...will try to keep my blog updated... >.<''