Assalamu'alaikum.
Okay, firstly, I apologize if I haven't updated in almost over a year but I've been keeping a mental diary again. But this time... this time I definitely need to say something.
*WARNING, harsh words incoming*
FUCKING FUCKING STUPID IDIOTIC..... ARGH!!!!
I just really needed to say that. And hey! Guess what? You wanna know who am I ultimately pissed off at? No, don't guess. It's... ME!
Of course it's me. Who else would as fucking idiotic as I am? It's ridiculous. And the fact that I'm actually mad is ridiculous as well. I mean................................. I'm an idiot and my laptop is suffering because I'm basically crushing....STOMPING! on these alphabets because I'm just so fucking pissed off and annoyed at myself! I can't even...don't even feel like crying because I'm so angry.
And the most ridiculous thing is that it's not even a big thing. It's just something so small and simple and people would probably laugh when I tell them why exactly I'm angry but I just can't help it! And again it goes back to me because I knew there was I reason I didn't want to do it. I just knew but do I listen to myself? NO, I DON'T! I dream and dream and ultimately JUST KEEP DREAMING! And THAT is definitely fine because the moment I do SOMETHING to even make the dream AT LEAST come true, maybe just even a LITTLE, it'll crash and BURN!
So I'm better off to keep dreaming and do nothing about it. I mean, hey, what you don't know won't hurt you later on.
Done. Till next time...I think.
And no, there's no way I'm gonna tell anyone what exactly happened.
Okay, firstly, I apologize if I haven't updated in almost over a year but I've been keeping a mental diary again. But this time... this time I definitely need to say something.
*WARNING, harsh words incoming*
FUCKING FUCKING STUPID IDIOTIC..... ARGH!!!!
I just really needed to say that. And hey! Guess what? You wanna know who am I ultimately pissed off at? No, don't guess. It's... ME!
Of course it's me. Who else would as fucking idiotic as I am? It's ridiculous. And the fact that I'm actually mad is ridiculous as well. I mean................................. I'm an idiot and my laptop is suffering because I'm basically crushing....STOMPING! on these alphabets because I'm just so fucking pissed off and annoyed at myself! I can't even...don't even feel like crying because I'm so angry.
And the most ridiculous thing is that it's not even a big thing. It's just something so small and simple and people would probably laugh when I tell them why exactly I'm angry but I just can't help it! And again it goes back to me because I knew there was I reason I didn't want to do it. I just knew but do I listen to myself? NO, I DON'T! I dream and dream and ultimately JUST KEEP DREAMING! And THAT is definitely fine because the moment I do SOMETHING to even make the dream AT LEAST come true, maybe just even a LITTLE, it'll crash and BURN!
So I'm better off to keep dreaming and do nothing about it. I mean, hey, what you don't know won't hurt you later on.
Done. Till next time...I think.
And no, there's no way I'm gonna tell anyone what exactly happened.
