Life Talk 5

I found something similar between me, Ewon Jung from Totally Captivated and Masataka from Sakura Gari.

We're all afraid of love.

The thing is, they found theirs because their life revolves in mangas and manhwas... Me? I guess I'll be alone then...

I'm always wondering why I normally think like a seme. I like the idea of being a seme and somehow I think it suits my personality...sorta...

But I guess I can be an uke as well. Wait, I am an uke, being a girl and all.

What the hell am I ranting about...

Anyway, I figured if I were to be a seme, I'll probably be a lonely one. I'll spoil the ones I love, I'll accept whatever they present to me and yet I can't give my heart to them. I'll probably be the best and worst seme ever. I'll probably get dumped from almost every relationship I've been in...

If...I was an uke (which I am) I'll probably be...capricious... I'll do whatever I want, still spoil those I love and will probably give them anything (not literally) but same, I won't hand over my heart. It's mine and mine alone...

Selfish...I know...

But...It's a scary thought...to lose yourself like that... I can't imagine myself like that, ever.

And knowing how guys these days are worthless SOBs... I'm better off keeping it to myself.

Heh...I'm a seke. XP

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The tingles come more frequently now...